一年又要结束了。时间不会为自己做个总结，所以我想制作一个过期的日历。

Jan
黄城夜韵start。温馨的气氛适合酝酿花蕾。

Feb
黄城夜韵work in progress。情人节快乐。

Mar
黄城夜韵end。沉入海岸线的夕阳标志着起点。

Apr
Happy birthday to me。十八岁生日真的过得十分开心。可是，你以后不要这么傻了哦。

May
尼诰大道坍塌。我们学会，必须及时说“我爱你”。

Jun
百天纪念日。九个小时，是长长久久的好兆头。

Jul
度日如年的block test。但考试最终都融化成想念。

Aug
为她在机场过夜。想起两个月前，机场是温暖的。

Sep
中秋节快乐。飘下的光环映出温柔的光，比丘比特还可爱。

Oct
Study break. I’d let you break the lock and study my past.

Nov
A level。终于走完这条崎岖的路。对不起，我的情绪曾让你的爱情变得小心翼翼。

Dec
Prom, chalet and X’mas。相信New Year’s Eve也会一样幸福。


如果要为今年选择一种色调，那会是薰衣草的紫。有点小秘密，有时暗淡神伤，但却没有停止芬芳幸福过。

钟声响起。嗡嗡嗡的声音随着华尔兹的节拍凝结，音符一个个重重地垂在她耳里。

“嗡...嗡...嗡...”她的首饰开始蒸发。

“嗡...嗡...嗡...”高贵的晚礼服像叶子般枯萎。

“嗡...嗡...嗡...”玻璃鞋出现了裂痕。

“嗡...嗡...嗡...”天鹅的羽毛脱尽，鸽子的原形毕露。

她又如同进场时，成为全场的焦点。众人摒住呼吸，时间被巫婆静止。

不久，不知是哪家的小姐惊叫一声，在场的人哗然一片。

王子也似乎被喧闹声从睡梦中打醒，如被荆棘刺伤一般，直觉性地扔开她粗糙的手，往人群深处钻去。

她的脚被玻璃割伤，鲜血和眼泪一同滴在光亮的花岗石地板。那深红，仿佛被践踏的蔷薇花瓣。

她在众目睽睽之下，将玻璃碎片放入围裙的口袋，抬高头，尽她身上最后一份力气，挽留她仅剩的尊严，迎接大堂外的南瓜。

国王比她幸福，因为至少会有人假装看得见他的新衣。

铁达尼之恋，美的不是rose与jack之间的不朽感情，而是灾难中人性本质的泛滥。有的人，在灾难降临时而跃升成为全场最美的焦点，有的人却展露恶魔的嘴脸。在船沉之前的两个镜头，对于rose算是讽刺吧。年老夫妇拥抱着死去、母亲对这孩子讲述有关永远的青春的童话故事。rose无法和自己心爱的人一起走完人生的旅程，却也因为没有跟jack同年同月同日死，而随着时光的老化而改变了相貌。

其实，把女主角取名为rose，这名字实在恰当。如果把名字翻译为华文，应该翻译成“蔷薇”而不是“玫瑰”。因为她比玫瑰更顽强，她的美，始终野性的美，而并非典型贵族小姐娇滴滴的作风。有人可以说她没有矜持，但是她的刺，不也是为了摆脱压在贵族小姐肩上沉重的枷锁吗?试想，要是她的母亲没有唆使她嫁给有绅士身份但没有绅士风度的caledon，她的叛逆也不会急升而释放为爆发式的爱情吧。她的刺，是冲着一个个剥夺她的生命力的魔抓；她妩媚的花瓣，则为了在她生命里注入朝气的人而凋零。

"A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets"，她说。如果她的心是海洋，那当年沉入大西洋的jack，肯定还留在她心中。“海洋之心”是她深藏于心里的泪，最终也溶入大西洋。

rose dawson一定是朵蓝色的蔷薇。

惭愧，昨天因为要温习历史所以没上网来blog，没想到昨天也那么容易成为历史了。

半年... ...已经遗失之前的记忆。或许那段记忆根本没有存在过，而是造物者天马行空地虚构，在塞入我这凡人有限的生命罢了。

最近总是在入睡之前的一刻害怕死亡。小学的时候就开始有这种恐惧了，它就是这样，定时地使我的心脏miss a beat。但是现在想想，如果死后还发觉自己没有完全死去... ...就像在阿嬷的丧礼出现的蝴蝶，一直守在阿嬷的灵前，还跟着我们步往火化厂。妈咪说，那是阿公。

虽然他们的结合没有经历爱情长跑，但我相信，他们之间还是存在着爱情的。虽没有生死相许，但也始终可以手挽手走上黄泉路。

我要比你先死。你说，你又怎么知道，活下来是种快乐？浩劫的生还者，必须承受更深的痛。

我说，不管谁先离开，我们在那生死更替的霎那，一定要紧紧地抱着对方。

未作完的梦，延长的结局

你在我眼前淡化，溶入碰撞着的化学分子。（不，其实这一点也不科学）无论如何，你还是消逝了。我再也看不到你，听不到你，碰不到你。无论如何，我还是催眠自己，说服自己，这些都是一场又一场太过逼真的梦。

那天我哭着醒来，真的以为这全都是一场梦。直到我邂逅命案现场，我才惊觉，死亡其实从来没有远离过我们。

直到，手机简讯铃声响起，小小的荧幕上上演着莫大的奇迹。你的名字又出现在我生活里。理智与逻辑被现实撕裂，我握着手机，比抱着一个十世单传的婴儿还要谨慎。

我的世界渐渐浓缩，知道她只融得下你和你的简讯。别人说我疯了，死人怎么可能传简讯给我。他没有死，我说，他只是被困在另一个空间， 也不是他想要的... ...况且，他确实有传简讯给我啊... ...你们看！你们看！他一定还存在着... ...

他们只施舍了一脸同情，便回到了自己的生活。于是，我的世界更小了。我的世界，真的只能融得下我，他，和他的简讯。越多人要剥夺我这唯一的人权，我越要紧握它。即使把他捏碎了，也是我的自由。

因为我知道，你是不会就这么丢下我的，对吗?

原来今天是七巧节！

虽然看不见鹊桥的壮观，听不见牛郎织女的窃窃私语，触碰不到如真似假的东方童话，嗅不到传说的原始韵味... ...

但愿感受得到沐浴在相思缠绕的夜晚的浪漫。

无病呻吟：我不能想象身边换了一个人。

两个表妹跳出高楼的窗外。她们笑嘻嘻地，使劲地跳，跳得好远，好远，似乎不知道危险也没有察觉到任何危险。就这样跳了出去，跳入黑夜的血盆大口。就这样被吞噬。还好我看不到锐牙咀嚼着她们的镜头。因为我已经被无助瘫痪了。

还好只是梦。

Part I
原来已经过了多过一年了。而我没有及时察觉。真对不起。我需要在生离死别相碰的季节才会被提醒。我在friday the 13th想起了你，是幸运的，因为我发现你还活在我心中；是不幸运的，因为我发现我再也吮吸不到你的生命力。

如果一声叹息会使一个天使死去
你的离别是
无数的感叹在追悼
断翼
成了血红的标本
镶住了邪恶的棺木

也许，那天有黑猫经过。

Part II
有四次在机场过夜的经验，当中两次是为了送机。碰巧的是，两次的班机都是要飞到美国去的。两次，都带着讲义在机场温习。也许因为这样的缘故，送机时的心情都不至于太悲伤。是睡眠不足麻木了不舍？抑或是理性地读LEP而导致脑里都是萧萧傻仔超吴柱国而导致自己没有察觉朋友的离即已经不是小说情节？

她坠落了
还好你没有

飞吧，但到了陌生的国度，请用敏锐指引自己。飞蛾扑火的情节一点也不凄美。

Part III
怀念着你...
想念着你...

somehow i find it easier to relate to kids.. they'r juz so simple, laughin loudly when they r hapi, crying when they r upset. they wun mind wad others tink of them as long as they'r hapi w the way tings r. such simple bliss~ n not to forget they can b so pure n innocent n adorable! *melts*

i wanto b a child~~*

stella曾经在blog里写到：“Troy說的是男人。有人說男人來自火星，而MARS在神話裏是戰神。”我想，这也许是从古至今不变的事实，永恒的真理。古希腊人视战争为光荣的；世界大战时，日本人不也因为主战派的洗脑，产生了同样的遐想？

或许，男人也许也和女人没有什么分别。也许，他们很多都不是为了争取什么“光荣”，什么远大理想而战，或许，他们也只是被逼上一条自己也不想走的路。他们只是为了自保而战。为了不战死沙场。

看了《兄弟》，所得感触，是种悲伤、无奈。disgust for war. disgust for human beings.说不出的话语。连在脑海里也只捞起血肉模糊的残念。 是，血肉模糊。那就是战争的催害作用。血肉模糊得分不清对与错，分不清对与错不分青红皂白打打打打杀杀杀杀，不分青红皂白地征伐男丁。

战争真是人性最佳的“风月宝鉴”。一面是人人喜欢看到的爱国情操光荣胜利，另一面，骷髅的笑脸殷勤地警告。“乃知兵者是凶器，圣人不得已而用之”。讽刺。凶器非兵者也，凶的是“圣人”。就像戏中提到的，is an ideology worth more than hundreds and thousands of human lives？上层追求自己的政治理想，牺牲的却可能是连社会主义民主主义军国主义马克思主义半糖主义都分不清的文盲。

人类真是一种最复杂最麻烦的动物。兄弟之间的相互不理解、争执，全都源自于对与对方的爱护。哥哥为了送弟弟离开战场，不惜丢开本能的生存意识，尽全力表现自己以获得奖牌；弟弟不愿自己苟且偷生而看见哥哥被战火摧残，更不愿看到战火摧残了哥哥善良的本性，变成一个杀人傀儡。张东建饰演的敬泰性格比元斌饰演的敬修内敛的多，受了什么委屈都往肚子里吞，吞得久了，就像腹部伤口生了蛀虫的军人一样肝肠寸断。弟弟却因哥哥变成了个杀人不眨眼的“英雄”而唾弃他。他以为哥哥好战，但稚嫩的他到了半个世纪后才终于了解，哥哥当初从天使退化成恶魔，也是因为战争的迫害。他也是为自己所爱的人而战。他不识字，唯一知道的是，它要保护心里最爱的人，所以他勇敢作战。他只知道他们无辜地被卷入战争，所以他们得作战。他只知道战争是两支军队互相残杀，谁也没有对，谁也没有错。所以，当他尽了全力保护的人们与他生离死别的原因是因为南韩军人的杀害，他成了“叛徒”，加入敌军，无疑是为了向自己家乡的军队复仇。

我第一次在戏院里哭了。第一次哭是在两兄弟与未婚妻和老母被迫分离的时候；接下来的几次都是看到打斗场面。虽然看不清楚是谁在打谁，但却被画面的真实性提醒，战争时期确确实实发生过这些事，甚至连更赫人的都有，肯定有。与其说是为了战争的撒旦本质掉泪，倒不如说是为了人类相互露出比野兽还更残暴的兽性而哭泣。看戏时我不禁想象，如果我是那个被枪口指住头额的士兵，我心里会是什么感受。无论你多么不想死，你还是难逃一劫。又想象自己像无端端被冤枉被捉去枪毙的英信，心里即使有赤壁淝水长的怨言，恐怕也只能向孟婆倾诉。

去了《兄弟》官方网站，有一个观众这么说：“To kill or to be killed are the only fate of the soldiers.”

原来不只生命里很多事情是无法选择的，连死亡也是。

Psychometric Assessment Exercise results~>

personality dimensions

social skills (extraversion)

• more extrovert n outgoing thn most
• tend to show interest in ppl
• more at ease socially den most
• usually express views n opinions
• lyk to feel part of a team
• quite lively n enthusiastic

potential weaknesses - hog d limelite, indiscreet

emotional resilience (anxiety)

• more resilient thn d average person
• tend to feel calm n in ctrl
• confident n self-assured
• fairly patient n relaxed
• as trusting as d average person

potential weakness- overlook potential prob n difficulties

creativity n change (tough-mindedness)

• more open-minded thn most ppl
• receptive to other ppl's pt of view
• have artistic sensitivity
• fairly imaginative n idea-oriented
• somewhat experimenting n free-thinking
• use senses n intuition

potential weakness- do not tink abt technical aspects of d situation

empathy (independence)

• fairly dominating approach to working w ppl
• handle social situations well
• fairly challenging
• as forceful n assertive as most ppl
• averagely trusting n understanding

potential weakness- somewhat self-centred

conscientiousness n motivation (self-ctrl)

• more nonconformist n expedient thn average
• prepared to break rules n take risks
• somewhat unconventional
• rather disorganised
• as likely to tink tings thru n plan ahead as most ppl
• leave tings to chance

potential weaknesses- seen as unreliable n risky. make mistakes in detail

 

好漂亮！
 
浮光点点，仿佛星星都漂在水面上，随波荡漾。对岸是一座座的城堡，而王子公主再彼岸遥遥望去，这个遥远又陌生，却也属于他们的国界。灯塔是他们的禁区，但对她而言，它正是浮光掠影的化身，也是视线里最美的一幕。吊桥悬挂在虚幻与现实之间，像是引导他们走向幸福的道路的鹊桥。
 
总有一天，我们会到达对岸的。

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已经有十七年没有在地铁上这样了，今天你却让我做到...

不说出来的话才是最感人的，不是吗？

ARIES WOMAN

She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. She think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed.

If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or mixture of character. Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, nothing will stop her.

Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she choose you, she will need to be proud of you. "Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is "Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love,but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (certainly there are always exception).

She always look cool even when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a "Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will not show her ambition, but she> will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again, quietly but sure. If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person,but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it.

You are moderately psychic.
You really are quite psychic, so it's worth taking the time to investigate those aspects of the paranormal that interest you. Consider purchasing a dream interpretation book, a beginner's set of tarot cards, or the latest astrology book to see which tools best suite your personality.

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